I was going to tell you all about the new way I’m eating. And I want to. But as I was trying to organize the ideas on the page, I realized something…
As I reflect over the past three years, here’s the cycle I seem to be stuck in: I hit a weight I’m unhappy with. I do Weight Watchers until I hit a more comfortable weight. I go off the plan in favor of a diet/lifestyle that’s more in line with my ideas about health and nutrition (and one that doesn’t require me to be glued to my phone at meals). I get off track. I gain weight. I start again.
And that’s frustrating. Especially because weight loss isn’t my primary goal. My goal is to internalize habits that will fuel my health, with the expectation that my weight (whatever it is) will be a reflection of that good health. I see now that I have completely failed in that goal.
Changing your behavior is hard, especially around eating. (Most of my patients would agree.) I actually relate it to literally navigating a route. I find that when I have a GPS in my car (as I have for oh… not even a week – haha), I don’t actually learn where I’m going. I just follow the directions and somehow I end up where I wanted to be. But when I am using written (static) directions and peering at every street sign along the way, I engage more with the process. In one or two trips, I’ve memorized the route because I can visualize and understand it. And maybe that’s a big reason why I’ve failed to change my habits after Weight Watchers.