Food Cycle


I was going to tell you all about the new way I’m eating.  And I want to.  But as I was trying to organize the ideas on the page, I realized something…

I’ve been here before.  In 2011.  And again in 2012.  And that’s frustrating.

As I reflect over the past three years, here’s the cycle I seem to be stuck in:  I hit a weight I’m unhappy with.  I do Weight Watchers until I hit a more comfortable weight.  I go off the plan in favor of a diet/lifestyle that’s more in line with my ideas about health and nutrition (and one that doesn’t require me to be glued to my phone at meals).  I get off track.  I gain weight.  I start again.

And that’s frustrating.  Especially because weight loss isn’t my primary goal.  My goal is to internalize habits that will fuel my health, with the expectation that my weight (whatever it is) will be a reflection of that good health.  I see now that I have completely failed in that goal.


Changing your behavior is hard, especially around eating.  (Most of my patients would agree.)  I actually relate it to literally navigating a route.  I find that when I have a GPS in my car (as I have for oh… not even a week – haha), I don’t actually learn where I’m going.  I just follow the directions and somehow I end up where I wanted to be.  But when I am using written (static) directions and peering at every street sign along the way, I engage more with the process.  In one or two trips, I’ve memorized the route because I can visualize and understand it.  And maybe that’s a big reason why I’ve failed to change my habits after Weight Watchers.

Anyway, I’m hoping this latest attempt will help me make real change, not just be another arc in the cycle.

For the Next Stage

I had to say goodbye to an old friend yesterday…

But I made a new one in the process.

Goodbye Blue, hello Sandy!

Spring Return

I have been feeling so compelled to blog lately. I even started a post recently entitled “Food Is Personal.” I was going to include pictures from the Food Photography class I took a few weeks ago, but the post felt rambly and pointless and the pictures weren’t that great and I was having trouble uploading them (with the new Flickr format), so the post remains a draft, likely never to see the light of blog.

Instead I’m here with an equally rambly post saying that I’d like to come back here soon, to think in this space. I’ve been thinking a lot about food and spirituality and home, not necessarily in that order. I’ve been stockpiling a list of products that I love and would love to share. I totally changed my eating habits 2 weeks ago and I’d love to chat about that and tell you where it takes me.

I am currently on my way to work and sometimes that seems to be the thing that sucks up 95% of my time and energy, but truly there are a million other things I’d like to tell you about.

I’ll be back soon.

Vacation Recap


Last month, Brian and I went on an Eastern Caribbean cruise to St. Maarten and St. Thomas. I really enjoyed Saint Martin/Sint Maarten! There was so much to see and unlike a lot of the Western Caribbean ports, you are actually allowed to explore the island!


I had heard about this neat area called “Grand Case,” which is referred to as the Caribbean Restaurant Row. We headed over there for lunch and although the beach was beautiful and the restaurants were abundant, much to my dismay, only 3 or 4 were actually open! Apparently, it’s more of a nighttime hotspot. And since the restaurants were closed and the cabs were few and far between, we didn’t even end up eating there. Maybe next time… Or maybe we’ll skip it and head to Maho beach instead.

Welcome to our fake island!

We also got to recreate this… special picture. I’m pretty sure we’ve improved with age!


Here’s the link to the rest of the photos!

Instagram: Photo a Day


If you’re wondering what I’m up to lately… well it’s mostly work.  I tend to work long hours because I’m still learning.  I’ve also had some complicated and sad patients lately that leave me emotionally drained.  Once I get home, it’s difficult for me to find the energy for much of anything besides making dinner, petting Kitty, and catching up on a TV show or two.


I do consistently make dinner though, with the help of this adorable chalkboard I got from Zulily.  I plan all the meals for the week and do the grocery shopping on Sundays.  On my commute home, I tell Mr. B to turn on the oven or start chopping something.  There’s no way I would be able to cook even half as much if I didn’t do this kind of planning!  It’s been a total lifesaver.


I’ve also been singing with my a cappella group every week, meeting with my Cooking Club once a month, working on some little projects at home, and enjoying a few fun activities with Mr. B.  If you’re interested in more frequent updates, I’ve been doing this #photoaday thing on Instagram.  The plan is to post one picture on Instagram every day for a year. So far, I’ve been having a lot of fun finding images to share.  Check it out!


Shrimp for One, Two Ways

A friend was visiting me today and she reminded me that I have been sorely neglecting this blog.

I have been working full time for 6 weeks now and I absolutely love it.  I was anxious about the transition but after all the travel and weddings and time off, I surprised myself by being totally ready for the stability of working full time.  I even do the whole week’s grocery shopping on Sundays now!  Maybe sometime I’ll share a weekly meal plan with you.

Another thing that has happened over the last six weeks is that I’ve become mildly obsessed with a certain crustacean that I used to find inedible.  I’ve finally turned a corner on shrimp!  And not only that, but I’ve started to crave it!  If it comes up in conversation during the day, I will probably find a way to work it into dinner that night.  Mr. B still hasn’t found his shrimp nirvana, so I’ve mostly been cooking shellfish for one.  With the help of a giant bag of frozen shrimp from Costco, here are two of the ways I have been enjoying shrimp lately:

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I was singing “Somewhere That’s Green” this morning in the car and I suddenly realized that we’ve found ours.  I present to you, The Sawyer Greenhouse.

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